It feels as if I am in a pensieve, flying from one memory to the next. Not quite reliving it, but not a complete bystander either, caught in limbo. It’s not quite as bad as if there were a swarm of Dementors approaching, with all the happiness draining, only cold, hopelessness, despair remaining; instead, it’s quite the opposite.
Most of the memories are actually very pleasant, making it that much more painful that’s all they are: memories. Memories that will continually be distorted with time, only being left with unfocused glimpses as the clock ticks on. A face here, a laugh there, a simple melody faintly fading fast.
And to think I will be reliving this feeling in a few months time, when I leave this campus to transfer back home. University of Kansas, home of the Jayhawks, basketball champions, the list of what they are known for goes on. Yet they are missing one thing: all of the friends I have made in the short time I’ve been at Texas A&M University-Kingsville.
Yes, this town is small. Yes, there are definitely some things that could be better. But, for the most part, the people here are absolutely amazing. When I first came to Texas, I was taken aback by how friendly everyone was. It made me suspicious they were after something.
The only people that friendly are Jehovah’s Witnesses and salesmen. It’s not like we’re rude up north, we just don’t go out of our way to be so friendly. I will definitely miss that culture (and true Mexican food, of course).
If I could, I would list absolutely everyone who has really made a difference in my life while I was here, but that would take an entire page, at least. I still can’t believe how lucky I am to have had such wonderful roommates. I always hear of the horror stories of roommates that don’t get along, but we are all so close we’ll have scary movie nights at least once a month. We decorate for every holiday and birthday. They’re the best roommates and friends I could have ever asked for.
I think another necessary thank you is due to the professors at this university. I’ve only been here for two semesters, but they have all been so great, truly wanting us to succeed. If we don’t understand the lectures, we always can go to the professors or find a tutor that works for us.
And lastly, to the staff of The South Texan, the Press Club, all of you who work with the school media in some way or another: you guys are my family. Thank you for taking in this strange engineer to your normally communications-exclusive zone.
All the late nights we’ve worked putting the paper together or arduous meetings attempting to come up with ways to raise money were some of my favorite nights here. It was just that we were all together is what make it so memorable and enjoyable. I’ll definitely miss you guys the most.
Dear, dear TAMUK, I’m sorry things didn’t work out between us, but I think it’s time we started seeing other people. Thank you for everything and helping me realize my next step in life.
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